WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU ARE CRANKY

So, I am cranky today. In fact all week to be absolutely honest about it. Yes. Its true. "Pollyanna" has bad days or weeks as well. I wanted to hurt back. I wanted to tell some people off in some really clever ways that would wow them. I wanted to tell them to go....away for ever. Some days, people that you love and ones you dont love, treat you like horse poop. And they don't give a rip either. So after I have had my thoughts about taking them out and giving them a nasty piece of my mind, I remembered that I have choices. I have the ability to maintain me, my peace, my self, my joy. To be frank, I couldnt locate that right away, but it was good at least to remember it. I am not out of control of me. I do not have to control them, what they say, think and feel toward me. I just get to decide what to do: punch them or go find a party. Something like that. So yes. Cranky. frustrating being around jerks or having them for relatives, but alas, they are not the final word in my life no matter how much power they seem to have, I always win. (at least that is my motto) I get to win and I will win. (after I finish being mad and cranky) meanwhile I am not being fun to be with so I have sent myself to my room,,hopefully to come out with a better attitude and maybe even that Pollyanna outlook back once again. Just maybe. I get to pick.

Ponderings of Fall 12

I can't believe that I have not written a post in 14 months. This is coming from a woman who "loves" to write. I can only say I have nothing profound to write tonight except the urge to not let another day go by without updating my blog.
First I need to say...God is so incredibly kind to me. A relative who usually likes such things to remain anonymous, just paid off my debt! I am still reeling from the full impact of this news and so amazed and relieved that words cannot begin to express.
Then I need to say, I am watching my adult kids choose their mates and have children and I am in awe of what a great bunch of people they are, talented, wise beyond their years, making good decisions about life, careers and how they raise their little ones. I am thinking "wow". I must have done some things well..so grateful as I see what they are all becoming and have become!
Thirdly, I have to say that I have been privileged to have some dear beautiful friends this past 3 plus years. Friends that have gotten to know me and really support me when I have needed it, who have brought such joy and fun into my life.
Life is good to me. I have not always liked the rough parts and was stretched beyond my wildest imaginations during the hard times but have come through it all liking who I am and being ok with my past even though others may still be trying to get over it. (or not. :) )
I just rechose to live in Alaska because I know it is the right thing for me. I have the most peace living here and I know God has a good plan for me here.
So as winter approaches (rather quickly I might add), I am looking forward to my winter of plans: sewing a quilt for the next grandson, taking Spanish from Rosetta Stone and preparing my children's curriculum for teaching kids about encountering God and staying close to him.
Oh yes, I do work as a nurse 40 hrs a week preregistering patients for surgery and I do get a chance to meet all kinds of people and give them an arm of safety and calm as they come into an unknown experience of surgery.
My life is good. and my God is good all the time!