Recently Bound

Freedom or not.
What does it mean to you to be free?
So here are some of my rambling thoughts this morn about this over used word.
Freedom.
It was bought in war for this country, freedom to worship, speak, love, live, work as I please. I did not buy this. It was purchased for me with the blood of men and the loss of lives.

But at some point in my life, some things inside of me put me back into slavery...bound to others'opinons, bound to others' expectations, bound by my lack of  confidence and dissappointment in what I saw in me, bound by my refusal to look at the good and continual obsession with the bad.

I am sure there is more but this is all that is coming to my mind. So to come into this new place of freedom personally, there was also a war to fight. It did not get handed to me. It is not a "free" gift! (this place of being free). I fought to be me, I paid dearly in more ways than I care to inumerate. And I must add I have no regrets in this for I found a treasure in the fight. (Me)

And thus this concept...what is freedom to you and what do you have to do to have it complete in your life? I would guess this is an ongoing process. I would guess the answers are not always the same.

Recently I found myself with a different freedom than I have ever had and a different kind than I had ever imagined. Suddenly, I found myself with no ties...free from all ties that would keep me in one place. Absolutely free to choose with no constraints. I am not sure I fought for this particular situation..it just landed in my lap. No relational ties, no job, no car, no permanent housing;  Now this free state before me......what to do...what is inside of me?...what is the priority of my life? what is the immediate priority? how can I go for both of those? how can I see my material needs met while at the same time running after the dreams that previous ties have always constrained me from pursuing?
I don't know the answer to these questions but they are keeping me on my toes, excited, scared, and in awe of what I find within....Freedom.. more understanding to come in the near future. Stand by for updates until we meet again....