Just fix me already.

Relationships. Wow. They can be wonderful and complicated and joyful and miserable. What to do, what to do?
Just fix me already, I say to myself. This one thing I know. I can control me. I can't control you or him or her. That is their job. I can only do me. I have to be my best friend, by best counselor, my best cheerleader. (of course not excluding God at all)
But I have to love me. Accept me. And be kind to me! its so key to relationships. Who else will take care of your heart like you can? This is not to say keep everyone out of that arena of taking care of your heart because friends and those in covenant with you may often be doing this with you.

So back to the issue at hand.. Example: You have a  conflict, an unresolvable issue, an unlovely attitude or behavior in someone who is in relationship with you. (at work, at home, in friendship)It is hurting you, in small ways or huge...
In this kind of situation, in my former life, I liked to analyze, scrutinize come up with a solution for that person (who I think is my problem) and then fix them. Yea. that did not work out for me. ha.
So then I started to see ..that was an impossible assignment. If you don't believe me, try it.
Then a famous line came into my consciousness (thank you Danny Silk) and it was this:
"What are you going to do?" this is a question you ask you. You have control over you. You get to choose what YOU will do. only. Its so comforting and freeing and so fun to know this. I can only do me. I cannot do you. YAY!!!!

So me and God, we are working on that department. What I cannot do in me, He can. But I can control me, my choices, my actions...I get to choose. I don't have to fear. Relationships often ebb and flow like the sea.. we are human..some go out to sea  and never come back...but Not to FEAR!! no fear here. Just control me. Its more important to be true to you and who you are created to be than anything. If you have a covenant with a person and this little blip comes onto your horizon, then God is also working on all those factors you have no ability to control.  I will be happy now, I will focus on me. "Barb, what are you going to do?" I ask myself. Just fix me already..is my prayer to Him.. and He is doing just that one relationship baby step at a time...After all He has all eternity. :)